[ Thankfully he hadn't landed on his shoulder. But those words did hurt to hear more than any . ]
Selfish... yeah.... that's prolly about right.
[ He was selfish though, wasn't he? Thinking he could keep them both. Selfish and childish, thinking he could coast through anything with his charm. Well, this was where his charm got him.
In trouble.
In serious trouble.
But he stayed still, his gaze turned down. What was he doing here? Why was he here in the first place? But he reached up, slipping his glasses off and tucking them into his pocket. They never came off - until now. He felt comfortable enough to, after all. If there was anyone he could be vulnerable around, it was Watanuki. He reached up to rub his eyes briefly with his fingertips and rubbing them harder with the back of his hand when he found his fingers weren't enough. ]
...d'you remember when we first met? Bloody wreck before you came 'round. They'd just left. You were the only one that got me to smile that day. And I thought...
[ a breath. ]
I thought back. I'd found myself wondering what it'd have been like if Yuki was like you.
Didn't feel like I'd always have to impress someone. Didn't feel like I'd have to guess at knowing what he felt. So... I prolly was selfish then. Selfish that I'd allowed someone else in. That I bloody well liked it.
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Selfish... yeah.... that's prolly about right.
[ He was selfish though, wasn't he? Thinking he could keep them both. Selfish and childish, thinking he could coast through anything with his charm. Well, this was where his charm got him.
In trouble.
In serious trouble.
But he stayed still, his gaze turned down. What was he doing here? Why was he here in the first place? But he reached up, slipping his glasses off and tucking them into his pocket. They never came off - until now. He felt comfortable enough to, after all. If there was anyone he could be vulnerable around, it was Watanuki. He reached up to rub his eyes briefly with his fingertips and rubbing them harder with the back of his hand when he found his fingers weren't enough. ]
...d'you remember when we first met? Bloody wreck before you came 'round. They'd just left. You were the only one that got me to smile that day. And I thought...
[ a breath. ]
I thought back. I'd found myself wondering what it'd have been like if Yuki was like you.
Didn't feel like I'd always have to impress someone. Didn't feel like I'd have to guess at knowing what he felt. So... I prolly was selfish then. Selfish that I'd allowed someone else in. That I bloody well liked it.
That it felt better'n anything.